Back from Aussie...

so on sunday i came back from australia, baby :D

it was awesome experience :)

Packing packing....

packing packing, i have less than a week to prepare for my student exchange trip to Australia and i haven't really prepared anything yet,
gee...i am confused...
which one should i bring, grrr~

hahahaah tugas :P

disuruh bapa guluu buat blog and atuu uda punyaaa :D hihihi jadi tak usah buat lagi
uyeyyyyy :D

Update???

I don't feel like writing much.
But all i have to say is so MANY things happen. from love stuff to school stuff....to alll..... huhuhuhuhuhu.


BUT IMMA ENJOY THIS SHORT BREAK. AND CHILL...

Cintaaa cintaaa??

Aku belajar...

kalo cinta ga harus emiliki dan ga bisa dipaksa.
biarin ajah. emang klo dya cuman anggep aku sebagai adiknya duand, jg gpp...asalkan aku ga buat masalah utk dya.

kka...smgaa masalah muuu cepet terselesaikan n smuggaaa langgeng. aku doain.
kmu buat suatu kepastian yang bisa ak terima, mkasih kakak !

I love you.
U're such a gentlemen. :]

Raining seasons

weeewwww it's almost the raining season.....always rainin rainin rainin...........


ke ujanan truuuussss XP

loveee...

Am i really?


What is this really? Uuughhh....

Fallin.....in love?

Is this loveee that i'm feelin?

am i really over him? am i really gonna start a new page???

i love him???

1st Place.....yay-yeah!

last week i was picked by my teacher to be a representative for the english short storymaking competition at this hotel Marbella. I was shocked and kinda nervous. But then you know i put hard work into it and just leave the results up to God and guess WHAT?!?!?!

I WoN 1st PLACE !!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's amazing but shocking too. I didn't expect it. But anyways i'm happy that i've alreayd made a step to make everyone i love happy. :)

and now i dunnoooo.....yesterday some kids from my school and smancil had 'tawuran' i dunno how to say it in english but it's bad.

anyways i'm kinda broken hearted too because i think the guy i still have a crush on is hitting on someone and already shot her. I hope, i really really hope, he's rejected. :( i know it sounds bad and i'm egostitical but.......i just can't let him go.


OKay maybe i'm happy if he's happy but it kinda sound like bullshit at times. huft. Whatever i gotta move on move on move onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn......right? :'(

Midsss is overrr.... X)

Midsss is overrrr babyyyyy ...... hhaaahaaaiiiii...............!

it's been a long time, i haven't touch my laptop but oh my God. The mids is soooo confuzzling.....but i'm glad it's over. Just wish that i have a good result. Amien.

now i'm sleepy. zzzZZzzzZtttTTtTtt..................hahahahahhaha.

i don't think i feel like writin right now. so i think i just wanna give update.

Eiddd...........Lebaran............!!!!!!!!

Tomorrow is lebaraaannnn or EIDDDD.......oyay oyay oyay....!

No longer fasting....! Oyay oyay oyay oyay !!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hhahaaaiii.... xP

gonna partaaayyy harddd......bwahahahaha.

can't wait till it's oveeerrrr oveeerrr overrrr.... i wanna eat eat. hahahaha. ;P

Eiddd....Lebarannnn....

Tomorrow is lebaraaannnn or EIDDDD.......oyay oyay oyay....!

No longer fasting....! Oyay oyay oyay oyay !!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hhahaaaiii.... xP

gonna partaaayyy harddd......bwahahahaha.

can't wait till it's oveeerrrr oveeerrr overrrr.... i wanna eat eat. hahahaha. ;P

fb and yeah...

omigosh...i'm so tired with the same old stuff...especially facebooking. though it's kinda fun when you're bored but sometimes i think it's kinda useless. except for chatting and reuniting with friends....am i right?

but what can i do besides that...? lots of things. but it's like there's a magnet that makes me go there all the time. Huft.

Ramadhaannn Ramadhaaannnn !

Ramadhan is almost over in a few daysss!!! GAHHHHHHHH!
First of the first thing, I wanna tell u bout this thing in indo called MUDIK which is like going back to your hometown. Which is somehow kinda weird to me cuz to just go back to your hometown, why does it have to need to wait for Eid Break?! When the road trip is like hell crazy. Its just WOW. Undescribe-able.

Anyways so I’m going to my grandma n grandpa’s houses in middle java and east java. So practically I’m going from west java and across to the east. I’m telling ya it’s a tough journey. IT’s a pain in the ass. Sitting in a car for hell alotta hours is killin. Plus my baby brother got car sick and barfed everywhere. It’s sickening.

But anyway so first pitstop was my grandpa from mommy at middle java and we stop at a hotel there for a night.

Then another pitstop at DIY, because my mom is going to her college to get some stuff to continue her college in east java. So anyway we stayed there for 2 days at a three or four star hotel, it’s pretty nice. Cuz’ I get to do lots of shopping, so of course it’s awesome. Though on the way the same thing happened to bebe bro, he barfed and I got part of it. Which is nasty.

And last pitstop is my grandma’s house from daddy at east java. Which is the most tiring of all since it’s a long way and waaaaaayyyyyyy at the edge of the city. Huft.

But anyway here I am. Bored. Cuz I have nothing much to do rather than, looking around, sleep, doing some house jobs, study? abal-abalan. Yeah those stuff. So it sucks. I wanna go to DIY again. It was awesome.

For now I’m thinking for what should I do to overcome this boredom. HUAHHH…

blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa- blaaaaaaaa-blaaaaaaaaaaaaa-moooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo….

Random? Yeah. I’m goin crazy here.

Fallin in and outta love.

LOVE!!!!!!!

I am annoyed with......................................LOVE!
I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!I hate LOVE!


I hate fallin in and out of it and i hate gettin involved somethin unimportant that's around LOVE.


I AM TIRED WITH LOVE ! I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE !I AM TIRED WITH LOVE!


for once i want to commit on somethin right.

why is it so impossible.

I wanna be mature. Don't some of u feel like this too?

LIke u just want to escape of everythin and just refresh the unimportant stuff...??

ANd just be freeeeeeeeeeeee and ahhhhhhhhhhh I WISH and all i can do IS WISH.


(Nhiz, shutup stop whinin!)


huft. patience, patience, patience,...ramadhan. yes.
Huffhhh.

Just bored.

09/09/09 some people says it's a special day.
I wonder why?

Hwaaaa...i am bored. waiting to open my fast. Gyaaaa....huft.

How long can this stay. Ck.

Holidaysss.....Examsss....Remedialsss.....Goin WILD!

AHA-AHA I LIKE IT AHA AHA! Well okay, it's been a while i haven't write in here since my internet modem broke down and ran out of money (hikz hikz, i want the unlimited one, poor me) but anyway i learn not to complain and to just feel blessed for what i have now.

SO anyway my daily exams just passed and GUESS WHAT?! i have one math remedial test, physics and chemistry :-) great. huft. ;-/
IT was like a disaster but yeah it's over, just have to wait the mid-semester test which is after the holiday in two weeks.
Blegh...i hope i'm prepared. I want to get a good mark. God bless me and give me the strength.

But anyway for now, this week is like this thing called SANLAT, which is full with islamic stuff. But it was kinda boring. 'THough i'm tryin to be good.

Though i can't wait for the holiday, since it's ramadhan and fasting month is almost over...FINALLY. so yeah....my family and i are going to travel from west Java to east JAva to EVERYWHERE! I just hope it's going to be well and safe and nothing wrong is gonna happen. Please make everything GO WITH THE FLOW GOD, i'm praying at U.
Always.

Anyway yeah so...i hope i get to go SHOPPING...hahah. Not surprising from A ME. ME...without shopping is ???? Eror. Impossible.
Hahahaa. BUt i'm tryin to safe as much money as i could and be more mature. :)

Ecstatic.

At this moment, i'm just feelin so ecstatic. Since yesterday actually. A miracle happen. Something i was waiting for. Finally it's an end for them. I'm not wishing for anything but i just feel more...relaxed? No. Like...free. No. I don't know how to say it but it's inside there that i've always been wishing for ***** and waiting for ***** but just get totally left. Alone. ***** going to someone else. A person i don't want ***** to be with, because of some reasons.

I know it may sounds mean to wish something bad, but it's the best for *****. I just want ***** to ends up with me and not get hurt, because ***** is a good person.

One thing i do know that when i like someone, i don't just like any random people. If i like someone, i'd stick with him in good times and bad times.

For i belive, to be in a relationship, you need to have trust. That's just the basic though. The other things can follow.

But anyway, i'm happy. Though i would be happier if i could see *****, it's been a long time and i miss *****.

I just wish it won't be karma. I don't want it to happen to me. What i just wanted is being really good friends with *****. If being lovers is impossible, i would love to be their best friend instead.

"Sayang belum berarti Suka,
Suka belum berarti Cinta,
Cinta belum berarti Kekasih,
Kekasih belum berarti selamanya."

Funny timesss..!! Fasting Timeee a.k.a Puasaaa...!

Tomorrow is fastingg timeee, but guess what? I won’t be able to do it because I have the daily routine gurl thing. So anyway starting from tomorrow, I need to watch what I say and act right. No swearing, needs to be more patient, be a good girl, no complaining all the time, no lying…which is kinda impossible, but the point is always try to do nice things. Yes.

Well anyway today there were kinda a lot of funny things happened. First my mom was making “rujak” this indo-yummy-appetizer but anyway so she was emmhhh I dunno how to say this but “ngulek or ulek-ulekin” the sauce with this “tempat ulekan dari batu” << thing, I dunno how to say it in English but yeah the thing was made out of stone. And I don’t know what happened or maybe my mom was just too high, she maybe “ulek” it too hard that the stone broke into half. Which just drives my dad and me, into crackin our head off. It was hilarious. The thing was made out of stone and she broke it. That’s how powerful my mom is. She can break heavy stones. Cuz it’s not some kind of light palate. IT’s a really heavy palate bowl that pretty thick. But yeah.

And then another funny thing, at these kind of season, is the season of sickness. I don’t know why my 1st bro was sick then my dad is and now my baby bro is sick too. And the funny thing was, my dad was coughing hardly on the bed with my lil bro beside him watching tv. But since he has a big tummy, when he coughs it goes up and down. So when he coughs my baby bro was hitting his tummy instead of his back. LMAO!!! It was hilarious if u sees it in reality.

Another funny story is when I have my private lesson last night. Yesterday subject was “English” which I don’t really pay attention to cuz I already know the basics. But the English teacher knows my history and stuff, so yesterday we chatted about pronunciation. Since Indonesians have funny accents when they speak English, it’s funny sometimes how they pronounce things. Like “beach” sometimes it can sound like “bitch”. But then the English teacher who is an Indonesian, not a native, told me this really funny story about his experience with his other Indonesian students.
>So it was like this…this English teacher had a long beard…as it got longer, he decided to shave it. Then when he go to the school he teaches, a student of his same up to him saying “Sir, can I ask you something?”
Teacher: Yes what is it?
Student: You are different, aren’t you missing something?
T: really? No, I’m not missing anything.
S: Yes, you are.
T: What is it?
S: Your bird.
T: (Shocked) What?
S: Your bird is missing.
T: What do you mean? How do you know it’s missing?
S: Yes it’s missing. I saw it yesterday. You cut it.
T: (More shocked O.O) WHAT?
S: Yes, your bird was still there yesterday.
T: (*thinking* even now my bird is still here :P but still confused and shocked.) Where did you see me? (O.O)
S: Here at school…see…(while rubbing his chin) you cut your birrdd..
T: (Getting what his student mean) OHHH…BE-ARD…not BIRD…! =P Yes I cut my beard. (sighed, feeling relaxed, if bird, I already cut it a long time ago *he meant to say*) LMAO.

So yeah, that’s a story because of wrong pronunciation could mean a different meaning. If you know what I mean above, you’ll laugh at the innocently sick convo =P

So yeah, right now though, I’m going to do my bio homework first. I have a 3 days off because of early fasting break, but so many tasks to do. I’d rather stay at home though than going I dunno where, because I could finish my money up. which is bad. Because I need to save up money and be more efficient. Yes.

That’s the plan. At this fasting season, I need to…
1) Lose some weight, control the eating habits.
2) Be more efficient and mature.
3) Be more patient, and no swearing or complaining.
4) Needs to have good marks on my quizzes and finish my tasks.
5) Be good at school, home, and everywhere, needs to keep my manners right. =)

CAIO nhizaaa…u can do it!!!

RAMADHAN MUBARAK!!! Although I can’t fast on the first days because of some thingssss…but I know I’m strong and I can do it. YES.!.! Go nhizzza!

But before all, I want to apologize for all my mistakes if I hurt some people’s feelings or anything either purposely or not intentionally. Also the wrong things I’ve done. Forgive me everyone. At the month of purity and forgiveness, we humans must try to do as many goods as we can and forgive each other and help each other as God’s beings. So sorry my friends and relations, please forgive my bad habits. May God bless all of us.

Mixed up.

I don't really know what to say or feeling but i just want to give updates.

Somehow i feel sorry for my lover boy...althou reallyyy...kind of happy too. Whatta hell? I'm not makin sense? yeah. i don't get it either. Mannnn i just want to scream out "I MISSS UUUU and I WANTTT TO SEEE UUUU, ONLYYY UUU, i WANNA HANG OUT WITH UUUU, TALKKK WITHHH UUU and just REWIND TIMEEE to BEE WITH YOUUUU" :( does he even know that? No. (T.T) he's being heartbroken himself. [on yo face]

Seriously if he's with meee....it won't be like that. I don't know what it would be but IF it just didn't end up like that,...we'd know by now.

Like the quote, "If You Really Love Something Set It Free. If It Comes Back It's Yours, If Not It Wasn't Meant To Be"

I wish it would be like that or more like i want it to be like "come back to me".
It's hard to forget someone i really like and fall again for someoneelse. Even though he's occupied. I don't care. I still do like him. I wishhhh the messer didn't came. Agh. soo stupid.

Forget about that. Let's seee....pretty much i'm having a 3 days break forr fastingg breakk. yeahh....! I need to be good. No swearing, no doing somethng inappropriate. no bad things. but worse...! I just had my period so i prolly missed the first days of fasting time. Sucks? yeah. Well that's pretty much it for lately. Nothin exciting.

My lifeee sucks. NO it's okay. No more complaining. yes. nope. i shouldn't make it as a habit. YEs. CAIO nhizzz...u can do it! syalalala boom boom <3