What a day!

Okay right now i'm so friggin tired. So i went to the high school that i hope i will get accepted. Which is smandak. So today was suppose to be the day the principal's day to give us "pengarahan". But you know what??? He only gave a speech for 15 minutes! And the rest is from the administration staff and this Mr. ngelawak...gilaaa. But anyway it was a crazy experience. i mean seriously in the morning we have to sit at this lapangan until it gets so hoootttt....

then we were stuck at this friggin hot small aula.....which i can't really say aula. IT's like a friggin room, and we have to sat there like for 3 hours and it sucx. It was just blegh. But heiii......there are some cuties ;) hahaha.

Maybe i really should stop checkin out guys. hahaha. i mean what i want to do first is focus with school stuff and just adapt with it. I want to show those people and my parents that i'm someone they can be proud of and i also want to be proud of myself. Guys can come later. i mean, if you're really meant to be, they won't go anywhere.

Maybe later on, a little of fun can happen but for now...i wanna focus. :D hahaha but as they say "easy said than done" hahaha. my eyes still prolly goes ;D hehehe.

ANYWAYS...i have cousins at that school too, which is kinda nice. One is a smartass and one is a badass but still nice ;) hehe. but i was kinda annoyed at something to...(it's not about the school, it's something private) so s'not something important.

But heyyy look at the bright side for today! I'm gonna watch BBF in indosiar today...hehehe....so i won't have to sleep dreamless, i still can sleep and dream of hot sexy cutie guys. Wew. hehehe. So watch with me people, if u want to. heheh.

I don't think my title really match what i'm saying hehehe....i'm like talking about...guys? hahaha. Well i'm just a girl. hehehe. And they are just guys. We are meant to be opposite sexs. And one thing that made us oposite sexs are "to check each other out" HAHAHA. My bad. Anyway this is pointless right now.

I just want to say that I really really really hope i'm gonna be accepted at that school cuz hell i'm tired looking for another and w/e...i just want everything to end and can refresh and hang out for a while. :D hehhe.

Today's plan...

Hmmm...nothing much. You see i feel like i'm totally useless but nah. I want to go out somewhere but not in the mood especially it's sooo....damn hot and sunny outside =_= ugh...i can get a sunburn...haha ;P

But yeah, i'm just online and facebooking and blogging while accompany-ing, hehe, my baby bro sleeping. And also, since i have nothing to do and i can't come online late tonight. i have to sleep early, which is gonna be hard. Cuz i've always slept like at 12 or 1. Or sometimes not sleeping till morning. Hm. anyways i have to wake up early tomorrow since i have to go to this high school i'm gonna go. Smandak. There'll be some talky" from the principal. Hemm...but u know what? i'm still happy, u kno why?

TOMORROW is JUNE :D it's not that its special. its just that i get to watch BBF AGAIN heheh. It's gonna be in this indonesian channel called indosiar starting tommorow at night. heheh. and if u don't know BBF, it's short for Boys Before Flowers. It's this korean drama that i love. I've watched it in KBS World--cúz i have indovision at home, but then it finish. Though now i can watch it again. heheh. I love it. THey're so hot. It's so unbelievable though. It's too dreamlike. If yo u wanna know what i mean, just watch it tomorrow night at 21:30. ;)

But right now i gotta run for a minute or while actually, my baby bro just woke up. Huft. What a sad life. But hei, i love him...at times. hehehe. Hope they're gonna be useful when they get older so they won't be sucha pain. Haha.

Girl thing...

I'm sooo friggin tired today. It's bcoz of that daily girl thing. Huft. It's annoying. I don't feel like going anywhere. I can't really enjoy anything and i'm getting pissed easily too. agghhh...annoying. Especially when i have to handle both of my bros. agghhhh patience patience patience.


And now while writing here...my baby bro, is trying to join in...i'm sori if i have typos guys. Ohhh....now i'm bothered.

Body Slender

Yesterday my mom and i bought this exercise machine thing called body slender ofc...as you see in the title. Maybe you've all seen it cuz' its on the tv ofc and yeah, it's for exercising of curz. I hope my diet works. Haha.

Well to buy this thing, i have to sacrifice some of my riyals. :( hwaaa...my dad was like "No. You prolly not gonna use it like the treadmill" But u know what?!? I'm gonna prove him wrong. Luckily my mom still believe in me, hehe, a little. hehe. But she wants something from that tv program too, so we decided to buy two things n chip in the money together to get the 10% discount. HEhehe...wow. =_=' so lame. i know.

So yeah we chip in all our riyals together and i also pleaded my bro to chip in some, heehe XD so saddd...but yeah. at least i got it now and my mom got what she wants. which is this double sided pan thingy. and...yeah...she can do her thing and i'll do my thing. But the point here. I'm tekor.

Haaahhh...i just want to save those b'day presents money but now its ludes. Huft.
Nasib.a

Right Now (Na na na)

*It's been so long (long, long)
That I haven't seen your face
I'm tryin to be strong (strong)
But the strength I have is washin away
It won't be long (long, long)
Before I get you by my side
And just hold you, tease you, squeeze you
Tell you, what's been on my mind

I wanna make up right now now now
I wanna make up right now now now
Wish we never broke up right now now now
We need to link up right now now now

Girl I know (know, know)
Mistakes were made between us two
And we show (show) our eyes that night
Even said some things weren't true
Watch you go (go, go)
And haven't seen my girl since then
Why can't it be the way it was
Cause you were my homie, lover and friend

I can't lie (I miss you much)
Watchin every day that goes by (I miss you much)
Until I get you back I'm gon' try (yes I miss you much)
Cause you are the apple of my eye (girl I miss you much, I miss you much)
I can't lie (I miss you much)
Watchin every day that goes by (I miss you much)
Until I get you back I'm gon' try (yes I miss you much)
Cause you are the apple of my eye (girl I miss you much, I miss you much)

I want you to fly with me (want you to fly)
I miss how you lie with me (miss how you lie)
Just wish you could dine with me (wish you can dine with me)
The one that'll grind with me (said the one that'll grind with me)
I want you to fly with me (want you to fly)
I miss how you lie with me (ohhh, miss how you lie)
Just wish you could dine with me (wish you could dine)
The one that'll grind with me (ohhh, one that'll grind, yeah)*

http://lyrics.rapbasement.com/Akon_Right_Now_(Na_Na_Na)_lyrics_2279.html

i got it from the website above..by the way.

This song really fits my mood right now hehehe..

Undisturbed

I'm sooo happy i'm undisturbed right now. My baby bro is like sleeping sooo...snuggly. I love it and my other bro is somewhere in this house. Haha.

Finally i'm likeee alone. Having a time just alone is nice at times. But now i don't know what i want to do. I'm pretty bored though. So while i'm still thinking to decide what i want to do...i'll write in here too.

Anyways since i'm practically jobless...haha, i'm just downloading songs right now and...listen to songs and...and...and...and...i'm that bored. Night is just the quietest time i can have. In the day time, i'm busy like hell. Going here, going there, going to a cousin's house, going to invitations, pesenan-pesenan dateng, agghhhh.....just a friggin lot.

I WANNA HANG OUT WITH MY FRIENDS. I'm so bored. I want to have areunion with my old frends and also want to hang out with my new frends. Ughhh....but its like impossible at this moment. I'm just too busy.

Anyways...i want to buy some DVDs n korean/japanese dramas man...huft. My mind is being capricious right now...and i'm sooo...plin-plan. What's wrong with me? Huuuh.

OH oh...oh...i want to do a good diet. Hhahaii...i hope its gonna work. haha...man i suck...i can't commit into something right at times...cuz i'm gonna change my mind.

Hmmm...Hannah <> was right. I didn't change at all. I'm still a slowww-taking-things-into-mind person. Oohhh i hope when i'm in a high school i won't be hated. :S hemmm...

OOOHHH i know what i'm gonna do!! I've decided. I'm gonna continue writing the new story i'm making called... 'love of a doubt. but i don't know. I prolly won't finish it. It's just a one time thing but i hope i can make it into a real novel. Hehe.
(In myyy dreaaammssss) But heiii....everything is possible ryt? hehe.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder <3

Have you guys ever read this quote?

I love it so much, i don't know why. This quote is like what keeps me alive. This quote make me can cope with everyday's emotion...from anger to sadness to everything.

Okay. Maybe i'm a little bit exaggerating...more like a lot. But yeah, somehow something from the meaning of that quote really calms me down.

"Absence makes the heart grow fonder"

This quote really makes me think through every possiblities that can happen and be patient and to think every problem through before i get my emotions all worked up and say things just out of mind. Bcoz i might regret it later.

What this quote is saying, is like, imagine you're mad at this a person who you really love and actually care for, but you never know or realise this, UNTIL you're actually seperated from that person.

Yet when you met that person, you barely can show it. For now what's going thru my mind is... that if you love somebody, you just better let them know while you still can.

Don't wait until you're seperated and won't ever see that person again and cry over it. Bcoz you'll regret it forever.

I wish i can do what i just wrote, but sometimes it's just hard to do. Have you guys ever have the same situation as i am? When you're desperately wanting to do something, thinking so you won't regret it but afraid you're gonna regret it even after you did it.

I just hate the word "regret" right now. It's giving me chills.

Well everything in this world is a mystery anyway, regret or no regret will just happen when it's suppose to happen right?

Hmmm...i think i'm writing this post with just stuff popping on my mind. whew. I hope it makes sense.

Love of A Doubt

It was the end of Junior High when we first met
I laid my eyes on you and couldn't forget
I start to get to know you
But then i think back, if all of this can be true
I start questioning myself
If you're really who i'm looking for...

Doubt starts playing with my feelings
As if this is planned, it's like a pot with lots of carvings
What people say about you causes this
But if i have trust, i would've ignore those hiss
So if fate works, we'll meet again and work things out
But for now, you're my love of a doubt.



I just want to share this poem i made with you guys. I was really bored. So i just scribble stuff in my notebook and i made this poem. I hope it's okay :)

The Unfairness

Have you guys ever felt like...you want to just scream out loud and get out of this friggin world? This is what i'm feeling right now. I'm so pissed. First of all I'm annoyed with my mom. She's being so unfair to me. She's definitely treating me and my bro differently. I just wish sometimes she and i can have a normal convo as a mother and daughter thing. But with her it seems like impossible. I cna never have one of those times. She's always all serious with me. Maybe it's bcoz i'm the first child and only daughter but the point i'm making is...i want her to just chill and just be a mom. Stop being all serious with me. Especially i had another bro in Saudi. Which i kinda like and dislike. What i like about my bro is he's sooo...friggin adorable! i love him. He's sucha smartass. But what i dislike is i can't chill and it even makes the chances of my girl time talk with my mom more impossible. My mom always makes me take care of him, which i don't mind. But sometimes there is just a limit. I also want to just chill like other teenagers and hang out with friends and go to the internet and be free. But she always mistakes me with things that i just did into a "You know, you're always..." bla bla bla...and i have to hear that f***in shit that i don't need to hear.

While on the other hand, my dad is all spoiling and annoying me. He barely takes me seriously. He's always treating me like i'm still his baby girl. Aghh...this world is just never fair. And here we go again with me complaining... :(

But after all, i'm just a human, people. A human with feelings and emotions. A human who wants freedom. A human who is just a teenager.

Living in a world of boredom =/

Today is just as lame as any other day. I'm so bored. Nothing really happened much. It's funny though, how i complain when i have a lot of work and stuff but also how i complain when i don't have anything to do...have you guys ever experience that?
Hmmm...i am so human.

But anyway i'm just so happy i'm already free though. I found a high school already and i'm just waiting for my national tests results and junior high school graduating certificate. Afterwards everything will be all cool. I'm sure lots of other 9th grade students in Indonesia are going through the same things as i am and for your information, this sucks. I hate all of these freaking tests. So i'm just so happy i'm over it.

All i'm saying is i'm looking forward for the new school, new life, new friends, meeting new people...cuz' i'm gonna experience a whole different things.

I'm sorry if this post is so pointless. As you see in the title. I'm feeling so bored right now. I'm doing nothing special. Like I'm just chatting with my friends in Saudi right now, whom i miss soooo freaking much.

Anyways i'm out of topic....well maybe not out of topic, just.........blank. Ýes. That's it. I'm blank. Well i'll write something not useless later when i'm not blank. Ciao.

Innocence of a friend XD

Right now, i'm still on at 1 o'clock in the morning!!! I'm doomed....my parents would kill ME!
anwaysss i'm chatting with my sissy, amy, who is in qatar right now...and we are talking about lots of things from the serious stuff to the randomest stuff. Such as 69. Maybe some of you with dirty minds would just go...click! But for some innocent minded people...its just a number

Well for Amy...69 is just a number to her. Until some of her friends talked about it and she still doesn't get it. So she just asked me and forgive me to have such a dirty mind. The physical act of love was what i was thinking. But i was't sure either. So we...specifically i researched it. As a favor for Amy too.

I don't wanna say i'm wrong but i don't wanna say this out loud but let's just say that 69 goes in and out.

My very own blog...wow.

First of all, i don't know why i'm actually making a blog. Since i'm never really into it. So i'm just like sooo....confused....n feeeling all lame. If this wasn't for my best friend, Amy. I still wouldn't make it. She's the one who told me to start making one, so here i am. And thanks for all the help babe. ;) appreciate it.

Anyways...i hope i can remember i have a blog. haha. And i hope this won't be a waste of time.

And it's really late right now. I don't really know what to write, well i know, but i'm just too lazy. Well...i think this is it for now.

I have a blog. I SOUND DEAD.